Dear Friends,
I had a good day yesterday with no hyperactive bowel spells. I was able to move around more, and I think I ate about 1,200 calories, which is good for me at this point. I have been enjoying a lot of boiled turnips the last few days, they’re soft, mildly flavored, and seem to be gentle on my tummy. They are a welcome change after months of jello and oatmeal and cereal bars following treatment.
As Shayley mentioned in her post yesterday about the garden, we got the ceremonial first cucumbers yesterday. They go really well with turnips. I went out on a limb a little, as I just had to have some of the squash that Charlie coated in cornmeal and fried for lunch. YUMMY! I only had a few though, fearing consequences of the grease. They go really well with turnips and cucumber 
I shouldn’t talk so much about food, as I know most people are trying to eat less not more, but for the last 24 hours I’ve been in a state of craving food almost constantly. I think this is my body seeking to recover from losing the 23 pounds or so over the last year.
Shayley was reviewing and editing her poems and songs for her book yesterday. It is things she’s written from kindergarten to present, and she’s wanting to scrap everything before 3rd grade. I was distraught when she wanted to wipe out a poem called God’s Quilt which includes the phrase “razzle of joy” in describing the world. I asked her why she wanted to take it out and she said because she recently learned that’s not true, that the world is streak of evil. Sad, feels like a loss of innocence. –We’ll continue to debate what’s included in the book.
There certain has been a run of deaths, not to mention marriage messes, in the last few weeks. Shayley was shocked at Billy Mays’ death, as he did lots of commercials that run on her 2 favorite channels. I’d never even heard of him till the last six months, and I cannot say I was a fan of his loud commercials. I understand he was a soft-spoken person off-stage, though.
Well, one week until scans. I wonder if the anxiety of that isn’t what’s causing me to wake up so early. Somedays I have a good feeling about it; sometimes I have fear. Yet, as I tried to explain to Shayley yesterday, there may be bad stuff all around us (or even in us), but most always we can find some joy if we try. I’m succeeding on that front.
Thank you for your continuing prayers.
with love,
Lydeana
if you’re interested Shayley posted two things yesterday at 3martins.com
